Hold on...

Today is the day that really changes everything. While Master and i have put a lot of things on hold, the reason for that hold arrives today. We add kidlet number two to the family. While completely unexpected and unplanned, we're very excited, and nervous.

The thing about BDSM relationships and having a family: it's a hard balancing act. But it can be done. And it is so worth it. We're a tough family unit. i love that my son looks to me and his Father, and knows he can count on us as a team; but i also love that he knows that final decisions rest in the hands of his Dad.

Master and i may not have as much time for our kinky fun as we would like; but we do work very hard to make sure each others needs, at least at the base level, are met. (Stupid rice cakes. Don't worry, steak, we'll find time for you!) We've learned how far we can push ourselves, our time, our energy and what we want. We've learned how to let go a little better when there is time to let go.

We know that everything we do is worth it, for each other, for our kids, for our life. And frankly, while our lives are about to change again in unpredictable ways, those changes will be worth it, too. There will be moments where we want to pull our hair out, and there will be moments we are over the moon. There will be moments we are like any other family, and moments where i am crushed beneath Master's boot.

And i'm looking forward to all those moments and everything between.

See you when i get back!